Let the blood run down your arms then try and tell me everything’s okay. -(unknown)
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame
-SIA, Breath Me
Scars are souvenirs you never lose. –Goo Goo Dolls, “Name”
Blood transforms the warm bath water
and, in it, I see weakly
that this was a mistake.
–Joyce Carol Oates, “Passing an Afternoon”
The plain fact of it was that I was miserable—though my misery wasn’t so much
sadness as it was a shrieking unease, a gnawing despair, which I had been trying
that morning to cut out of myself. –Caroline Kettlewell, Skin Game
My head was full of wild ambitious urges to hurt myself. I tasted the ambrosia of maddened impulse. I wanted my interior pain out in my body somehow. I wanted this vague pain to be specific. That’s how I explain it. –Charles Baxter, The Feast of Love
She promised herself this: when she got back home, when she was alone, she
would draw the razor more deeply across her arm. –Joyce Carol Oates, “The Lady with the Pet Dog” ?
I hurt myself today
to see if I could feel.
I hurt myself, you said
to try to make him feel.
So I hurt myself again
to see if he’d see me.
I hurt myself again
and no, he never could see me.
–Tori Amos, in her version of Nine Inch Nails’s “Hurt”
The day I’d first cut myself, a switch in my head had been flicked. Instead of feeling horror, I felt nothing, and although I no longer want to hurt myself, my episodes of self-harm still felt normal for me in a way. I’d sometimes forget it still shocked other people. – Ditto
Let the blood run down your arms then try and tell me everything’s okay. – Unknown